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Tuesday, September 28, 2010

:: everything n nothing ::

I wanna read everything,
I wanna know everything,

but at the end i did nothing... n know nothing!!
gogogo, Hidayah!! better late than never!

Somehow, the hardworking level had increase,
FB level reduced,
Sleeping is more organized,
good, good, keep on motivating urself..
cant wait to go to Teluk Intan, but need to wait for another 2 weeks..huuuuu..

p/s: Deep inside, sometimes feel some pain, a chronic pain. Not assessable by pain score. This is not a visceral type, but it is non-localized, dull n deep-seated. For sure, not resolved by even fentanyl. Palpitated by the pain. Restless by the pain.Hate to see, but the visual cortex looked for it.Hate to remember, but the thalamus stored it. Hate to think but again, the thalamus processed it. And, hate the drops but the lacrimal glands keen for it. Allah, give me the strength. With the inferiority, I beg for U, I need U, all the time, Ya Allah.
hmmm..so, what i am thinking of?? uh-huh, maybe just an acute confusional state? maybe PTSD? ...........just lets the 'liver' keep it. Deeply. Silently.Or let it speaks to the lungs,upside, or flow in the enterohepatic circulation. Fullstop.

by miss hidayah
1.10am
29th of sept 2010


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